I'm Back

It has been awhile since I posted on here, mainly due to the fact that I haven't internet at my house. But I am back now and hope to post more often. I just started a new job at Walmart, I know it isn't the ideal place to work but it is something to keep money in the bank while I continue to search for a job in my field. I am also looking for a grad school that I want to attend. I am thinking maybe OSU to keep me close to my family (especially since my younger cousin is pregnant and I want to be there for her) and to Mike. But I am gonna continue to look because I am not sure if OSU has the program that I really want to get my Masters in. I will keep ya updated on my search and application process for all that. Mike and I are doing great. We are going on 5 months (officially) and I couldn't be happier.

Awesomeness

I am the happiest I have been in months! I am officially done with my undergrad and while yes I am kinda scared about what comes next, I know that everything will work out. The reason I know this is simple. Mike asked me out this past weekend! I know as long as I have him in my life that I will be able to make it through anything. I also had a company contact me and hopefully I will hear back from them again to get an interview. So all in all everything is going great in my life right now. That is all

Silence can be the loudest voice

Day of Silence
For those who have no voice for their rights
For those who are bullied
For those who have been forced into silence
For those who fear for their lives
For those who have fought
For those who have lost
For those too afraid to speak up
For those afraid to cry
For those who try
For those who are alone
For those who are forgotten
For those who are misunderstood
For those who stand tall through it all
For those who hide
For those who are proud
For happiness
For love,For hope,For freedom, For LIFE
For my loved ones
For us
For You <3
For me

Just some ideas of who this day is for.
 LET THE SILENCE BE HEARD

Day of Silence

Today is 2012's National Day of Silence. This is a day in which you vow to remain silent in protest for the LGBT community's harassment and for those individuals who do not have a voice or have a weak voice for their rights. This is a subject that I feel very strongly about. Being someone who identifies as bisexual and have many friends that are gay, bi, lesbian, and transgender, I feel that awareness is important.
I am not afraid to stand up for what I believe is right. I will stand up for those too afraid to be harassed. NO ONE should be judged on their sexual orientation. It is no more a choice for homosexuals than it is heterosexuals about who they love. And to all the Christians that think that it is wrong because of the bible, need to stop picking and choosing to read into and what to believe. You can not pick one thing in the bible to believe true and ignore others that you do not like. believe all of them or shut your self righteous mouth. As Christians, are you not suppose to also love thy neighbor as thy self? Are you not suppose to judge, lest you be judged?
Being a bisexual does not mean that I am dirty, that I want multiple partners at once. It does not mean that I am confused or that I do not know what I want. It means that I can look past what a person is biologically born as and see them as a person and love them for who they are.
Stop believing all the stereotypes you hear about. Educate yourself being making your opinion. Sit down and actually get to know someone who is gay. WE ARE NO DIFFERENT THAN YOU. We just want equal rights and to be treated fairly.

I could continue on but I feel that I am on a soapbox now and dont want to over kill the horse.

STOP THE HATE!!!

Down the rabbit hole

So I feel that I very much went down the rabbit hole a couple months ago. Everything in my life fell apart and I was in such a confused state of not knowing who I was or what I was doing anymore. Before two months ago I had my life planned out, I was engaged and getting married. I was getting ready to start my life and my family. I was looking for a new place to live, searching for jobs in different states, I wasn't moving back home. Then it all crashed down. I lost anything that was stable in my life all in one day. Chris and I broke up and I wasn't sure that I was going to be okay after that. I no longer knew what my life was about because for most of my college life, it was about him and our relationship. I started wondering around the world not seeing anything that I recognized, everything was in a dark light. Then I found some solid ground, I thought that the falling was over. I found Mike and things started getting brighter. But the darkness was still there, it was creeping around with me. Chris found someone new and fell hard and fast. I hadn't prepared myself for him being in a new relationship that was going to move so fast. I felt lost again, how could he be in love with someone else already, specially since he only knew this person for less than a week. Because of all this my stable ground started to falter, Mike wasn't sure how to deal with the emotions I was having. Not sure he wanted to deal with the mental instability. But I am slowly finding my way around this wonderland that I have somehow managed to get myself into.